farewell fatty

mom just walked in on me with doritos, game me the most disappointed look, and said “doritos? really?”

don’t worry, mom, I’m just chewing them and spitting them back out

• CW 228
• GW1 200- one new pair of jeans or a belt, not as a reward but because I’ll probably need it. Just one, though, 200 is still disgusting
• GW2 170- two new pairs of jeans, maybe wrist tattoo
• GW3 150- get hip tattoo touched up
• UGW 120- new wardrobe and belly button piercing

• 1 acai juice extreem pill
• 1 life cleanse pill
• 1 cup of special k fruit and yogurt with 1/4 cup of 2% milk +191
• tea with 2 tbsp milk and 4 sugars +76

• curry chicken over spaghetti +510

couldn’t purge because we had to have family time

• chocolate banana milkshake brought home for me +579

purged -289

fuck fuck fuck today was a waste

My shower drain’s cover is removable. This just occurred to me after I had finished purging in the toilet. So I tried to get a little more out in the shower, and it actually worked. The ick factor wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be, either. The water just takes everything down the drain, and then I put the drain cover back on, good as new. Plus, my parents went out for a walk, so that was convenient. My little brother was still here, though, and his bedroom is two rooms away from the bathroom, so I’m paranoid that he may have heard me. I’m not as loud when

TMI TIME

I keep my fingers in the back of my throat for the whole thing, but I’m still not super quiet. It could have just been me being paranoid, but I thought he gave me a weird look after I came out. Oh well, I don’t think he’d say anything to my parents, anyway.

Steak and cheese sub for dinner tonight, and we had a family meal. I don’t care if it was on a wheat roll, still too many calories. Now I just need to wait for whoever’s in the bathroom to hurry the fuck up so I can go in there and purge. Hopefully I can keep quiet, but I need to get this out of me. I can feel the meat and cheese and bread just sitting in my stomach like a rock, and knowing that my system is absorbing those calories makes me nauseous.

I think I’ll turn the shower on, purge in the toilet, and then have a quick shower so the water drowns out the noises.